Wish I could backdate this

I am sitting here in front of my computer at 7:20 in the morning feeling the overwhelming need to vent. I'm also sitting here shaking my head.. at myself.. for putting off blogging. I guess I thought that it was self-indulgent.. and intrusize, although I'd be the one responsible for divulging anything. I have such anxiety building about going back to work tonight and I've only missed 3 shifts due to being legitimately sick. I guess part of it is past experience has taught me you're not always welcomed back warmly when you've been sick. It just means others had to pick up the slack in your absence. I hate that feeling. I could understand it if I hopped on a plane and laid out on a beach all week or something. Instead I've been here propped up all week popping one prescription after another. Another part of my anxiety I think goes to the fact that I'll be working with someone whose standards I apparently don't meet. I'm new at my job.. not the profession, just the focus. And this individual I believe does mean well, however, she comes across so abrasive that I have left work and cried the whole way home at least twice after spending a shift with her.

On a good note, my temp this morning was 98.1. It's been almost 3 days now since I last had one. It appears that my sinus congestion has decreased and I've been able to blow my nose without much difficulty. I'm still taking Robitussin DM Max (which resembles gorilla glue from AC Moore) around the clock although I'm not sure if I need as much as I'm afraid what could happen if I actually stop taking it (vomiting and almost peeing myself from coughing was not fun!).

The birds outside sound like they're having a party. I don't know what they're so chipper about. It's a dreary overcast day. Thankful I have nothing to do but sleep the day away today before work. Well nothing to do other than toss a few things into the laundry.

So the plan for the day is to eat a little breakfast so I can take my medication, wake the sleeping beast and take the dog out, shower, toss stuff in the laundry, go back to bed, get up and ready for a fun filled night at work.

Thank you to anyone who took any time out of their busy day to read this. Sorry I'm not more interesting or exciting. However, I do feel a bit better being able to "vent" a little this morning.